How do you go on with a broken heart when everything you love is gone? It's eleven days. Eleven days. Eleven days without her. Eleven days. Eleven days. How many days? How many days? How many days? How many days is in forty nine years? How many days is in twenty five years? How many days is in nine years? Every time I lose somebody, it's just days and days and days without them. How many days? How many days does it take until the pain stops and the sorrow leaves?

Forty nine years didn't make the sorrow stop, And twenty five years didn't make the sorrow stop. Then nine years didn't make the sorrow stop. And it's only eleven days. How do I go on? I have nothing except pain and sorrow. Never felt so alone in my life.

I'm doing this to record myself and believe there's somebody there because I don't feel like I'm being seen. I don't feel like I'm being seen. When you look at yourself, there's a stranger looking back. The person I was is gone.

There's now just pain, just agony. And everybody keeps saying they understand, and they're telling me to be strong. I can't be strong.

Eleven days. Eleven days. Eleven days. Time marches on. Time marches on. And time marches on.